Another bad day

We fight
best friends for 11 years
i let her go
stupid me

i cant believe i was so stupid
she was in love with him
but i go over there
and have a good time

next morning everyone knows
but hes lying about some
she emailed me
said she hated me for it

replied back
some pretty nasty stuff
regret it now
it was horrible

i want to appoligise
but she said worse things to me
i cant even look at her
what do i do

jessie im sorry.