My strange love

This is not totally a love poem
a kinda funny and a poem about life

What should I do?
I have some problems that are unsorted and unresolved
now its a long time since we have been companions
Being with each other every flash of time
neither of us like each other
I think we are in love
as my problems wont leave me
and am taking steps to get closer to them only

What should I do?
Then a wind like thought struck my mind and remained there for a while may be
I went to my friends for a helping hand to rid this addictive love of mine
but to my surprise I saw that their love for the troubles
was even stronger then mine (I felt small cos I thought that am the best lover in the world)
They had taken promises to
be with each other for generations
until the count of births end for my dear ones.

What should I do?
Then I waited for the spring season to come
it came and went as if a bubble has busted when I tried to grab it
and my love was growing stronger and stronger
moment by moment and day by day
I was feeling the intimacies of our relationship
but this world never helped me instead they prayed every single instant
to God to bless our love and the relation to the strongest of bonds

What should I do?
Then I looked into the river of my heart and ocean of my mind
to reach for a pearl that I can take and rejoice on
and yeah! I found that magical piece in the darkest shell
which inspired me to be a painter
I started painting the barriers being just an amateur
with strokes of white on black and happiness on sorrow
to find a remedy for my engraved wounds
some of the new colors faded again
many got mixed in between the previous ones
though a few of them got embossed forever
Still I am making them a rainbow of colors, a stream of joy, a mountain of faith and a sight of peace
And most of all I love them even more now

till today I had no reason to live and was probably living to find an excuse to die
But the time has changed now
I have understood that life can never be understood (Yeah this is how it is)
So live life to the moments and enjoyyyyyyyyyyyyyy................
Now its up to you

What should you do????