Forgive Me or Let Me Go

I apologized so many times that i lost count in my head.
Inside my body and soul, i feel completely numb and dead.
I know you're hurting, because I'm hurting too.
What i did to you was something that i didn't mean to do.
You trusted me and i tore our relationship apart.
I know you're mad at me, but i need to know if i still have a place in your heart.
If you're completely angry and cant look me in the eyes,
Then my heart might as well shut down and die.
I cant take it if your answer is no.
Forgive me or let me go.