I can't believe its happening again
i can feel the sharp hint of tears in my eyes
i just want so badly to be wrapped up in his arms
but this will never be.
seeing him is torture
yet it is what i most look forward to
i count down the hours till i can once again see his face...
yet i dread the moment that reality reminds me that he will never be mine
i can't say that i haven't tried
because oh how i have
maybe just not hard enough
or maybe just a little too hard
since when does morality
over shine emotion
since when does factuality
outweigh fate
