Love lost

I am nothing but a shell........no one to care...
if i cry no one will come to help me
all my life strings are almost gone!
i only hold on to one more....but it is almost broken
how can i survive!
i have lost my way no longer can find the way out
all i have left is to find paradise......
but that means all my friends that believe in me
must go and die.........
why must i live in this hell!
i see my self in the mirror and see a little girl
shaking
crying
a wolf with 100 wounds
noting left but the darkness!
i will have to take the hand of the devil and go
but to paradise
my paradise
but will my wounds heal?
probably not.........
for i am not worth healing
i am not worth any of my friends time
i am a lost hope
i am not worth saving.......
the girl that i loved.......
she no longer has interest even in our friend ship.....
i am a monster that can no longer stay
in the human realm.....
i am a she devil!
i guess this is good bye......forever......*walks in to a cloud of darkness the sickness taking over and taking all my fealings away* i will never return to my normal self!
i am a lost hope........not worth any ones time......