I Didn't Want to Say Goodbye :'[

It took me a long time...
to finally tell you that I had to say goodbye
I didn't get the chance to do it in person
So I wrote you a letter.

Becuz of that you couldn't see all the things I felt as I wrote it
All I did was cry, the tears just fell without my control.
I don't know if you believed all the things I told you in the letter, and that's killing me

All i have now is the feeling of you hating me and these questions:
Will I ever get to hold you again or kiss you just becuz?
Will we ever get to be friends or is it gonna be too awkward?
...Will we ever get to love each other as much as we do now?