Dear mummy ( r.i.p. 10.07.07)

I smile on the memories
the joys of yesterdays
smile on the memories
that i hope never fade

for memories are all Ive got
no body for me to hold
just laugh at all those stories
that all your friends told

can you hear my cries mum
can you feel my tears
my hearts hurting
we should of had more years

i don't know what to do anymore
Ive got nowhere to run
no one to give me hugs
you left me all stunned

i feel so alone mum
and i wish you were here
i don't know how I'm supposed react

i love you and i know you know it to
we had a major fight that day and we didn't even kiss goodbye
but its OK .. because i don't want to say goodbye ... the purple balloon at the funeral was supposed be me saying goodbye ... i didn't want to let it go i just wanted to sit on the ground and cry .. but i had to be strong mum ... you would of liked me to be ...now I'm so lost and have no one to turn to... i don't need to go though with this ... not with the rest of it .. who can i turn to now ... who will let me sleep in there bed when there is a storm on... or when i just need to cry .... i don't want to go to work.. i don't want to do anything ... i just want to be with my mum