Miss him already

Missing him so badly.
Crying a silent tear.
Hearing his voice
on the answering machine.
Can't forget him
and can't erase him.
I thought he would be with me forever,
Looks as if, I was wrong.
God got to him before I could.
Snatched him, out of my grasp.
took him to heaven
and forgot about me.
I ran home.
Screaming, cussing at god
to take me with him.
I run into the kitchen
and grab a sharp long knife.
Looking up to the cealing
and saying
just because you didn't want me
I have to be with him.
you took him from me.
WHy didn't you take me too.
I loved him so much...

(I know It's not a poem poem but I needed to write it to get outta my aching heart.)