Wanting more

She sit quiet
in her own solitude
her face is blank
she has no expression
her mind is a black hole
full of memorires
that she refuses to let go
she sniffs another line
as her heart unfolds
waiting for the sensation
to control her
mind body and soul
but it backfires this time
she pops more pills
but they only make it worse
she holds on tight
to prepare for the worst
its so intense
so painful
it leaves her wanting more