Sixteen Years

Sixteen years of lies,
madness,
and deceit,

Sixteen years of running from my defeat,
Sixteen years of loathing and hate,
Sixteen years has been my debate,

Sixteen years and the pain still remains,
Sixteen years and still no respect have they gained,
Behind this smile i hide all the pain,
Behind this smile it will come back again,

After sixteen years what have i gained?
After all of these years i hate, just the same,
Sixteen years, and still, down the tears flow,
Sixteen years, soaked up through my pillow,

Sixteen years, and each day i ponder,
Sixteen years, and still each day i wonder,
day after day and still i am stuck,
don't know who i am, cant change from this rut,

And people they ask, what is it thats wrong?
And still every day i say nothing is wrong,
But deep inside its like I've gone numb,
It's been sixteen years, and still i am glum.

For Sixteen years, where on earth did you go?
After all of these years, the scars, they still show,
And night after night, the pictures, they grow,
After sixteen years, they pop up and they glow,

And i see what you've done, and how little you've changed,
I see what you've done,
And the pain still remains,

And from under the darkness and the deep depths you've come,
From you each day, forever i will run,
I'll hide, and I'll hide till the pain goes away,
Knowing forever and ever it will stay.