I look at myself
and wonder so many things
Do I have the strength
to pick myself up and carry on
or Do I let myself wander the path
it is what i have chosen
Looking ahead seeing nothing
a life of pain, loss, tragedy
All of it by my own hand, or so it seems
I seek out pain
feeling it is all i deserve
happiness belongs to others
Do I leave the few blessings i have?
I'll wander aimlessly
a lost soul in search of what?
Do I face the truth of my life?
or Do I continue the fantasy
