Im screaming Inside~!

I'm stuck in a three way triangle,
My mind is driving me crazy,
Who should i chose?.

The person I'm with now or the other.

The other who ignites my flame,
Charges my soul,
Gives me the motivation,
Gives me the Strength to carry on.

The other doesn't realize its tearing me apart,
Its breaking me when I'm not with her,
anticipating what shes going to say or how
shes going to feel to-wards me knowing that i also
have another.

Oh the confusion, i care to much for the one I'm with now to break her heart, how can i be with someone if i have no feelings for them? how can i stay with them knowing i desire another?

Love is a complicated feeling that drains my energy.
I cant make a decision like this, its too extravagant.

I wanna scream,
I wanna self inflict immense pain,
I wanna crush myself so i don't have to make the choice.

Oh the feelings for this other person is driving me insane.

I wonder how i would act if i was to get rejected?
It would just shatter my world,
Explode my desire,
Crush my soul.

The options are lay-ed out, i desire a secret an sensual love that is beyond imagination.

I want something that is exciting,
Naughty but nice,
lustful and for-filling.

The desires of my heart i can not understand!.

She once said i am untouchable, which is true to an extent,
Bending the lines doesn't class as breaking the rules, one could say.

All i know is the other is what my heart desires,
i just wish i could cut out my heart so i couldn't feel feelings anymore which would make things easier.

Shall you still look at me an say i am untouchable when I'm the one inviting you to me, the option is there for you to decide, you can have me if you desire me in the same way i do for you!!, the ball is in your hands...