Where did you go?

What is there to live for?
you don't seem to care.
no more knocks at my door,
life just doesn't seem fare.

every where i go,
i see your face,
but then my head tells me no,
then again, you're who i want to embrace.

the feeling i got with you,
best out of any,
this relationship thing to me is new.
i'm all torn, out of place, and bendy.

you were what i wanted,
you were what i needed,
all these tears i shed,
i have to get back up,
my life is to hard now,
can't anyone lead it?

seems impossible as you slip away,
month after month,
day after day.
second after second,
my heart is black i'm guessing.

i loved you,
you hurt me,
from this world i want to flee.

just get away,
out of this day,
out of this year,
go to a world where there are no tears.

no sadness, no evil.
just a happy arrival.

i wish you didn't do this to me,
but now i can finally be free.