Its been a while since I got you flowers
I�m sorry my love I�ve just been busy
But I want you to know that there isn�t a day that passes without you on my mind
I know you know that by now;
I talk to you all day in my head, hope you�re hearing me baby.
I couldn�t get out of bed last week; I had a fever
No one knew�
I remembered how you used to take care of me,
Make me your honey tea, feed your soft moist cookies
I remembered how you used to sit at the end of the bed
Hug my feet, kiss them and say that you�ll always keep me warm.
But last week�
I was cold and alone in bed,
Hungry with no cookies nor tea
And worst of all, I was missing you�
I missed you so much.
Since you�ve been gone each day has been a nightmare.
When I sleep, it�s the best time I have all day
I dream of you
I see us together, I see me touching you
I hear your laugh, it feels so real!
We hug and we kiss, we go out and hold hands
I get the chance to live a whole new day with you,
I get another chance to say all the things I never got to say.
Every time I see you, you look more beautiful than ever.
I think I smile in my sleep, I know you are watching over me.
I miss you baby�
I see you everyday in my dreams
And yet here I am sitting right next to you,
Missing you more than ever.
The worst part is waking up in the morning,
Waking up to my horrifying reality�
Not having you next to me,
Waking up to a nightmare�
It�s the worst sickening feeling a person could go through
I suppose you are blessed to have died before me.
I couldn�t bear make you go through what I am today.
I�m not going out that much baby,
I spend most of my time at the library reading books�
Learning about the arts and the stars that you loved so much
I finally find them interesting, I really do
I�m going to get my membership card next week,
This way ill be able to come and read to you, I promise I will baby�
I also found your cooking notes a couple of days ago,
I tried to make a batch of cookies,
They didn�t turn out that good�
all hard and burnt!
I know you would have laughed at me,
But I promise ill get it right soon baby;
Maybe ill even get some along next week?
Chester is doing fine, he misses you too;
I see him at times sleeping next to your night slippers
Your scent is still on them, and yes baby they still are by the fireplace
Your blanket is still on the couch and your clothes are still in our closet
They still smell wonderful.
I like having them there;
They comfort me and make me feel safe.
I have to admit that they are the only things that make the house feel like home.
It just feels like you still live there, and I like it.
Baby I need to go and take Chester out for his walk
Ill be back as soon as I get my membership card,
A good book, some flowers
Along with a box of cookies and tea also�
It will be a date baby�
Just keep watching over me ok my love?
And ill keep you in my heart forever�
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