The truth and ends

In truth you never really did understand..
you just wanted to be like everyone else..to fit in..
why is fiting in so important...why is being poplaur important..to be like everyone else..
The truth is you just wanted to feel like you belong some where...
Why that group of people that does drugs and bad things..
because you want to feel the rush...the insenation of it all..
In truth...thoughts people weren't really you friends after all..
They just wanted to use you...
For what? To get things from you like sex money..etc..
Why is that so...why didn't you see it..
In truth you did see it...yet just didn't want to accpet it...
In truth when you say you want to die...
The day you take you last breath you will regreat things you have done..
Why because you know you done wrongs and wish to take them back..
In truth...you just wish for someone to understand the real you..
Yet they never will because you fool them..
with your tricks and secms..to be some one that you werent..
and you soon just lost yourself..to the mindless
In truth...you wish you could show the real you...
So then maybe everyone could understand..
In truth thats all you every wanted is for someone to understand it..
In truth you never felt the real pain..other then self inflected..
Why inflected pain..to make yourself pain for your own mistakes..your own mis understanding..
In truth...you just wanted to fit in so bad..you lost your real self in it..
In the end..they never really cared..in the end they never saw you for who you really were..
In the end..every thing is not okay anymore...
Why isnt it okay...because you sitting there with a knife trying to end you life..
Why ended it because of the foolishness you done..
You got so much to live for..
Yet in the end you never see that..
In the end you just see what is happening now..and thats the only thing that matters
What about your future? Does that matter at all? Or was it just all a big lie?
In the end all you ever truely wanted was some one to understand..to truely understand it all..
Yet in the end you never seem to got that...because you were lost...in your own foolishness...
In the end..we all wish we can take back something..but soon learn we cant..
In truth..you never understood it eathier..
Why didn't you understand it..because you were too busy..have fun feeling the rush of the lies told to you..that you feed off of..
Lies to get you to do wrong..lies to get you in trouble..
why was fitting in so important...just so you can belong..
belonging...means a lot to everyone to feel belong..
In truth all you ever wanted was for someone to truely understand it...for someoen to care and love you truely..but in the end you realized as you lied down on your death bed that it was too late..you made your last mistake..by taking that knife...and ending it right then...