This is the journal God gave me when I flew up in the sky
He told my I could talk to someone, but I dont have much time
I couldve written to mom or dad, or maybe even the police
But instead I choose to write to you, my sweet
Im watching you and I cant help but laugh
I trip you as you walk and you fall onto the grass
You cant see me, but you know Im here
Ready to live your life in fear?
You brag to your friends about how you almost saved my life
I have news for you, you were the one who held the knife
Im glad you did but I cant see
Why the one to go was me
There are other girls, I know, but whyd I have to die
You must be terrified to say the word goodbye
Your boys pat you on the back and say that its okay
That you did your best and that is all they say
They never ask you questions like why my blood was on your hands
Theyll never know the depths of your lying cheating plans
I still see you all together and Im the reason for your falls
Im the one you hear whispering in the halls
Youll never know it but Im the wind beneath your wings
Ive helped you through your heartache and every thing
If any pain comes to you it will be from me
Until the others open their eyes and see
You killed me, my heart and my soul
You killed me, but I love you more than you know
You killed me, but I want your life to live
Ill give you everything an angel has to give
Ill make your life a living hell but Ill watch you like a hawk
Like a schoolchild waiting at school slowly watches the clock
Im sitting here with you now too, underneath this tree
As the sun shines down and you turn around to see
I saw that look on your face just now, like you almost saw
The girl you said you loved and instead ended it all
The way the sun lights up your eyes makes me want to cry
And at the way you just looked at me to ask me why
That is my favorite question, the one I ask every day
I wish your friends were right, that life would be okay
But it will never be because Im dead forever now
The others will just never now how
Can you see me here, really?
Tears streaming down my face so slowly
I heard you whisper my name, Im here!
Wrap your arms around me and lets let go of our fear
Did I just wake up, am I back again?
Have I been given a second life to live?
I dont care I just want you here with me
We can stay here forever, underneath this tree
I hope you heard me say I love you
All I want to hear right now is I love you too
Ive missed you more than words can say
Strange, how I hated you just yesterday
Stay here with me, dont you ever leave
Youre holding me, but do you really see
Im dead, remember? Im the girl you killed
The one whos blood you so violently spilled
I cant take this any more
I love you more than I did before
Why am I fading, I can see right through my skin
This cant really be happening again
I have to leave you, but please read this note
Take it to the others and tell them what I wrote
I want you locked up, but itll be all right
Just know Ill always be there, holding you so tight
