Reflective Curse

I can't face myself in the mirror
I don't want to be like this anymore
Can't understand why
But I like it when he insults me
'Cos I can insult him back
Looking just as shocked as I do
I guess I like the way
He drags me down
It makes me even more determined
To pick myself up and carry on
There is no one left
To hurt but little old me
If he wants me tough s**t
He can't have me
In my eerie dreams
A voice tells me that
He'll be the demise of me
And each time I face him
I know what he's going to say
'Back again I see...You'll be mine forever'
That's why I'm afraid to face him
Each time I do see him
Hearing those immortal words
I start to believe that
I will never escape his grasp
I'm so ashamed of defeat
So I just throw insults at him
Still he's really shocked
Mimicking what I said
He knows that will get to me
I know he's part of me
But why did he have to come along
And f**k it all up for me
Someone's got to assist me
I can't seem to hide
Trust me I've tried
Yeah he will be the demise of me
Soon I'll be leaving my house
In a battered old hearse
'Cos I can't seem to shake off
This reflected curse

By Jay Basey © 2007