Think Positively

What do I feel?
I feel pain,
The life I lead,
I can't believe it when I think about it, it's unreal.

What's the point in me being here?
Everyday I shed a tear,
And no one understands why I feel this way,
Maybe this life is the price I have to pay...

..For a past life full of wrongs,
You heard me wrongs not rights,
My life is like a fight,
Which I have to put up with until I fade away into darkness.

What have I done?
Everyday I'm thinking of ways to end my pain,
Jumping into the path of a freight train,
But that's too easy.

So I think of another way,
To try and extinguish this life of mine,
Whether it be drugs or alcohol,
So I snort another line.

But that didn't help to ease my perpetual agony,
So I down a bottle of whisky then gin,
Oh lord I just can't win,
So I sit back and think.

Of family and friends,
Would they really miss me,
Or would be glad I'm gone,
Although all of my feeling's depends.

On whether I should end my life or not,
I really haven't forgot,
How many people love and treasure my friendship,
My thought's turn to them, No longer do I feel like I'm on a sinking ship.

I'm thinking positively now,
I no longer think of suicidal thoughts,
And you ask me how?
How could I suddenly change like that.

So what I say to you is,
If only for a while,
Think of your family and friends,
And that should make you smile.

By Jay Basey © 2001