Fifth Suicide Attempt

* About my life in the past *

This is just how I feel,
Having to lock my feelings away inside,
Which makes me feel even more suicidal,
Forget about my pride,

My pride has disappeared,
Along with my will to live,
Come on, what more,
Do I have to give?

I really can't believe,
That I've reached this level,
Sanity is what I need to retrieve,
But at the moment I'm possessed by the devil,

I have lost my sister,
How am I going to cope?
I swear down to you,
That I've absolutely got no hope,

Coming up is my,
Fifth attempted suicide,
'Cos god has spoken to me,
Saying that my soul has to die,

By Jay Basey © 2005