I wonder if my life will ever get better,
I must find a long lasting cure,
To ease the pain I feel,
This open wound I must seal.
I've got to get away,
From this life of sin,
Where do I begin?
How must I pray?
Friends have tried to find,
My inner feelings, which are locked away inside me,
They are not going to win,
I got to impede their ongoing curiosity.
If I could change I would,
If I could take away the pain I would,
If I could alter the past I would,
If I could bring back Jo I would,
But that's easier said, then done.
All I want to do,
Is to just scream and shout,
Why!? Why lord why?
My life must be finally through.
It must be my entire fault,
Why did my little sister have to die?
Now true, poignant tears is what I cry,
And it's my entire fault.
Oh look! There's my bottle of pills,
Or shall I go the way my sister went?
Don't try and prevent me,
Because this message is heaven sent,
If I could change I would,
If I could take away the pain I would,
If I could alter the past I would,
If I could bring back Jo I would,
But that's easier said, then done.
If only I was there for her,
To take her away from the drugs,
And her so called mates,
They are all mugs.
I know it's too late,
My sister couldn't escape,
Because she threatened with rape,
In this life it's a never ending trait.
But I'm here to you all a lesson,
Taking drugs, it's a sinner's game,
And the dealer's are all to blame,
I lost my sister,
The best sister in the world,
Now I'll never feel the same.
My life nowadays has no gain,
But in loving memory of my sister,
I'll always stay strong,
As I said before, my poetry is a release,
While I go through agonising grief,
It gives me placid relieve,
As I never experience peace,
Why do you think I wrote this song?
If I could change I would,
If I could take away the pain I would,
If I could alter the past I would,
If I could bring back Jo I would,
But that's easier said, then done.
