Hidden lies don't love back

Im physically and mentally tired form all the abuse
fighting back weakly slowly losing it's no use
no more ambition no more blaze to my fire
Im losing my dreams all hope my desires
so tried of yelling and crying at night
wanting to run away but Im bound to this life
the blade whispering my name calling out to me
trying to resist it yet wanting to be free
no love from my surroundings only pain and hurt
how can parents be so cold and treat their kids like dirt?
nothing makes much scents to me anymore Im always so confused
pretending to be sane everyday I hope your not amused
I am fully broken down wishing to not exist
if that should come true would I really be missed?
trying to forget the past and only take life day by day
but some people won't let me forget I guess it just has to be that way
hit me one more time today go on I dare you to
lie about my bruises what else can you do
get your arms off me don't dare say love what's up with that
just because people are around us doesn't mean you have to act
see here rate here where is my once whole heart?
something so strong was long ago turn apart
look me in the eyes now do you really care
just because your my parents doesn't mean you care
can you say that you truly love me or is it just a lie
the truth is that you don't but I will not cry
for deep down inside Ive known this whole time
abuse is bad but no loving your kid should be the crime
I smile all the time now Im tuff as nails on the outside
but on the inside Im dieing slow just trying to get by
hurting uncontrollability with this unbearably fate
will you say you love me now mom and dad now that it's to late?

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