This past week I realized things about myself I never would have thought to be true before. I found that Id rather be in some meaningless relationship and not have to worry about losing myself in someone, than put my all into a relationship. I tried being honest with you and I scared myself. I wasn't ready to be swept off my feet so quickly. I wasn't prepared to find someone I would fall so quickly and hard for. I'm just so scared that my heart will be broken and trampled on that I don't let myself be happy about finding someone. All I do is worry about how to stop myself from liking them then letting myself fall in love with them. I wasn't planning on any of this to happen. I wasn't planning on finding someone who makes me feel so truly happy. I love holding your hand. I love just being with you. I tried telling myself I could just be friends with you. But when you told me you might leave, it all became so clear to me. I was so stupid not to see it before. So blinded by fear. I honestly can say Ive never felt this way. Ever. When you left today, it felt like a huge sadness came over me. It didn't even become apparent to me why until I got on myspace and went straight to your page, I couldn't stop smiling.
You make me feel weightless. And when I hold your hand I feel nothing can touch us. Your smile makes my everyday. Your voice gives me chills. And your
