Forgive Me...

I live with too much,
Too much guilt...
I'm sorry for my mistakes,
Forgive as I beg,

I should have stood up,
Said no... but now,
Now your gone brother,
Locked out of the love,

I wish you were in my place,
So those things I would face,
Better you protected in my space,
Do not misuse it for god sakes,

It cannot be,
Each day is pain,
Mind changes rapidly,
But fixes on the one thought,

I could run away...
Or I could stay to fight,
Neither of them will do,
So goodbye I'm leaving use,

Sorry I wasn't here for too long,
Couldn't tell you what was wrong,
Better I'm not here though,
I love you all... here I go.