I dont know why I feel this way

The sky looks so pretty tonight
I'm looking at it as I cry
I'm crying and i don't know why
you don't know it but I'm bleeding inside

Why should i go through this pain
when deep inside its driving me insane
i don't want to play God's game
everyday i feel the same

I know I'm a freak
and my hearts too weak
but love is all i truly seek
my future is now turning bleak

as time goes by I'm fading away
but i just want to be able to say
that all along i haven't been okay
I've been burning up from the sun's ray

I sit here and cry
wanting to die
i don't know why
i feel this way inside

Its your name that i call
as i start to fall
its your name i write on the wall
as i end it all