Undesirable feeling

This undesirable feeling of being lost and twisted
Twisted with wrench in my heart
This feeling in my heart I just dont understand
Undesirable feeling of how God can love me so much
This feeling of being misunderstood by family
Twisted hurtful words, looks, disbelief of how I am living
This looks in their eyes of what am I doing
Undesirable feeling of hurting the ones I love
Twisted shot in the heart every single day
This is such an undesirable feeling
Undesirable feeling of wanting this pain to go away
Twisted feeling in my heart wants to hide tonight
This heart hides again there will be no escape ever again
Undesirable high to numb my pain just one more time
This is a twisted feeling I want to disappear again
Twisted feeling of my mind saying Good Bye!
Undesirable twisted on all of this
This maybe my last day alive
Twisted heart does not know what to do
Undesirable thing to do is say
GOOD BYE!
LOVE YOU ALL!