Why

Why didn't you try to find me when i called your name
all the words i spoke was your little game
what i spoke was blur
blur to your eyes
so you could hear me
but not find
after all the seeds I've produced, and none that you have planted
I've done all on my own
after all the tears i fixed
you pored them back out
heaven has healed my heart
not once have you healed my soul
hells gates opened once again
on earth
you where never their to pick me up
all of this has happened to me was a blur
blur to your eyes
that became a blur to your heart
that soon became dark
so no more blur to your eyes but now to your heart
can you see me now?
you buried every single one of my parts