Sorry

Sorry I cannot do it,
My heart is breaking
My eyes are swollen,
I try not to remember on what happened.
Instead it haunts me,
Knowing that I am hated
If I was loved, it would be different
I would be happy.
Why am I feeling this way?
Why do you care?

Parents, family, friends
I have lost them, I hate them.
No one cares anymore, I should give up.
Why am I telling you this?
I am just a lonely girl.
It would be nice, to be loved.
Telling people that I care about them, instead of hating them
I wish it was that simple,
But it is not, its life I guess.

Why do I long for attention?
Why do I exist here?
Thinking that I am normal,
I am not, I am nobody
People say they know me, but the really do not
It bugs me so.
I am longing to know, what they think of me
I probably will never know.

-Holly H