WHy am i so different

Why do I feel like I'm so different why do I feel like

I'm 2 people trap in one body? Why do I feel like such an

Outcast how I can never understand myself let alone

Find someone who will understand me? How is it that it

Feels like I'm so evil inside me saying the things I say

Doing the things I do? Yet at the same time care about

Everyone around me. Why was I gifted with a big heart

That always gets hurt even when I know its coming?

Why is it that when I show my emotions I'm so fearful

Of rejection? So afraid I'm ready to borrow so deep

Inside myself to hide all the hurtness that I feel.