UNDERSTAND

I don't understand.

My MIND my HEART my SOUL what makes me ME.

Why do I question my PAST and yet Fear my FUTURE.

Why can't I ever find happiness that is what SADDENS me the most.

My BOUTS my NIGHTMARES my inter BATTLES that no one sees that no one knows.

You couldn't tell by looking at ME that I'm hurting inside yet on the OUTSIDE all you see is a smile that says otherwise

Every time I open myself I find reasons to close myself up.

Whats so wrong with me my feeling of worthlessness, hatred and so many other words i just won't put down.

Worst of all I feel like thrown TRASH.

WISH I could wake up from my NIGHTMARE and say its only a NIGHTMARE.

I know that will never wake up next to my angel, kiss her in the morning whisper sweet words in her ear.

You all will never UNDERSTAND my MIND my HEART my SOUL.

NO one ever will Not even ME