I feel happy
we're smiling
laughing
I am happy
and then it comes
like a steady gallop of doom
into my stomach
I freeze up
my hands go clammy
no happiness comes
Do you like me? Am I stupid? Am I pretty? Am I awkward? Should I be here? Do I like you? Whats going on? Why do I feel this way? Should I be doing homework?
Why can't I smile?
There's only one thing I can do.
please, no.
Only one choice.
no, there has to be another way.
I take out the container
no
Unscrew the lid
please
Take out a stopper
another way?
And put it in my mouth.
okay.
