MORE FIGHTS

The fights continue,
the screaming and the yelling,
the hate in there voices,

i try not to listen to them,
but no matter how hard i try i can still hear it,

my mum screaming at my dad telling him to shut up,
she hits him.

i can see my dad holding it all back trying not to hit her back,

with it hitting me so hard in the heart.. with all the pain in the world...

as i scream at them telling them to stop..
they just never listen to what i have to say..

if only i had a way to escape all the pain,
the only thing that i can think of is killing myself to make all my pain go away.

then maybe my mum and dad will then see that them fighting is slowly taking there children away one by one,

my older sister is gone with her baby (so never killed herself) she just doesn't live with us no more and now i no why... because of our mum and dad...

as my little sister doesn't understand,
how heart broken i am,

i am just hoping and praying that she never remembers any of these fights,

i am trying to stay strong for her when they are fighting,
but sometimes it just gets to much for me to be strong for her and all i can do is cry the tears of hurt,

i never no when the right time is to talk to my mum and dad,

i never wont to tell my little sister about the fights that our parents had,

i just don't no how much longer i can take this i don't wont to kill myself because then my little sister will be all alone and i just cant do that to her...

but i no that it gets really hard on her to sometimes...

if only my mum and dad will just stop fighting then maybe we will be a better family

i sit on my bed and cry and cry till i fall asleep.. i can still here them fighting in the back ground....

it hurts so much inside..... I CANT TAKE IT NO MORE....

trying to hold it inside... don't write much anymore because i think i'm getting depressed