Growing up without you two

Growing up without a mom
was so hard i always felt like
i didnt belong it felt like a part of my heart was gone
and my family tried to assure me i was wrong and that
my mom loved me all along
it would have been easier if both my mom and dad werent gone
but it always felt like no one was there for me all along
and as for my dad
there was no one that made me so sad
i felt like it was my fault that i didnt have my dad
but yet some part of me was glad
because my grandparents gave me such a awesome life i never coulda had
theres just a part of my heart missing
where my mom and dad should be
but my life is better off if only they could see how happy i can be with or with out them next to me
my grandparents raised me to be the best person i can be but they should have been there all along when everything seemed like it was going wrong
but i realized things were hard but yet better when you were gone because i could move on