The Sorry Unsaid

I'm sorry Sir
For the worry i caused,
For the burden you must of felt.
For those times we spoke
and I didn't relax, didn't let you know the pain i felt.
It wasn't trust, it was me,
I didn't want to feel what i truly was.

I'm sorry Sir
For the the smiles you saw,
You must of thought I was a lie.
Those times we spoke,
and i kept calm, never crying,
Never realizing,
You were there to catch me as i fell.

I'm sorry Sir
For never really noticing how much you cared.
For never letting you see the real, weak, me.
For those times we spoke
just you an me,
when asked and i answered,
but never everything.

I'm sorry Sir
That you knew my secret, my crimson secret,
I never thought of how it must of made you feel,
Knowing what i did every night,
And never knowing the real me.

I'm sorry Sir
For the worry i caused,
For the burden you must of felt.

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for my family and friends. I'm sorry i never let my guard down enough to really let you in, to be the one to hold me up when i couldn't stand, to be the one that i could finally cry to, and finally let it all out. for some reason, it wasn't trust, i felt i just couldn't ever let anyone know the me inside, the one that cries and feels all the pain. I hope some day you read this and know that i'm thankful for you being there for me, even thou i never let you in, even when i did it wasn't to the real me, and that im sorry.
I knew you cared.
Again I'm sorry.

Love Katie.
xxoo
2006