I'll see you in recovery

I didn't know you weren't what you said
I trusted you, and didn't use my head
All those years, but they didn't go to waste
But now there's shame written all over your face

I wish I knew you were smoking weed
Maybe I could've stopped it
You never told me you popped pills,
Or maybe I just ignored it

That time when you went to his house
And let him have all of you
I wish I could've been there
And I think you wish that too

Everything you ever said,
It was all a lie!
I didn't want to think you could deceive me
While looking me in the eyes

I tried so hard to rescue you,
But it wasn't hard enough
Being away from you for so long
Is gonna be so tough

I was confronted with everything today
And yes, I am partially to blame
But you've done things I never dreamed
And I was caught up in your grand scheme

Our mothers know everything, and I'm actually glad
Because Ray, you're sick, and you need some help
I can't give it to you
You have to want it for yourself

I wish things were different, and that this wasn't it
I'm sorry I wasn't there,
I wish there was something I could do
Because Raychel, I'm worried, and I really love you.