I wish

I feel like I am living someone elses life
That this life is just a game, one that cant be played
I wish I could have my old life back
Maybe it was hard but it would never be like this

I wish there was some way to change what has happened
I would give my own life to see and touch my mum just once again
I know she would never want that but I wish it could be me
I would disappear forever if she could be back here and be happy
Although there wouldnt be much point because all I want is to have her with me

I wish it could have been me
Lying on that bed
Drifting slowly away, drifting into nothingness
I wish it could have been me
Instead of my beautiful mum