Im just a girl

I am a girl of 14 years of age
I am also a girl who lives a life of misery
I struggle from depression but nobody knows
I have mental problems and i know that sounds funny but it's not meant to, its a seriuos problem
I've experienced eating disorders and it was a mistake, as a matter of fact it was a huge mistake
these are the questions that i ask myself each and every night and day, why do i have to be so fat, why am i so ugly, and most of all WHY DO I HAVE TO EXPERIENCE LIFE CAN I JUST GO NOW
i don't tell anyone my problems, it's like saying i don't trust anyone with anything but a few i do
i love so many people and it's almost like saying i continute to live my life so i can be with the ones i love!