Truths

Sitting here thinking, things run through this mind,
Of something, for some reason, it can not find..
Answers of different questions I feel I should ponder,
Though some how this mind begins to wander...

What I think and where it goes,
This is something only I should know.
But why does it go to that place there,
Do I continue, should I even dare?

The answer I seek, I can't seem to find,
Sitting here, I feel lost in my own mind.
It feels as if something is taunting me,
Trying to open my eyes, hoping for me to see...

But why do I even care?
Are the answers really there?
Do I really need to know the truth?
Will it help calm, will it help sooth?

But what is it I want to know?
Will you please help to show,
The things I need to do,
To help me become closer to you.

For these are my thoughts,
This is what I think about a lot.
But I can't see as to why,
Why is it I even bother to try...

For each time after, I feel alone,
As I take the drive back home.
But when I get there, all I can do,
Is think of how much I want to be with you.

For I love your beautiful smile,
God, it feels as it's been such a while...
Since the time I saw you,
What is there for me to do?

I miss your scent,
Your sweet and seductive hints,
The way you make me feel,
Until then, I will just have to deal...

With every passing second in time,
I fell lonely, wishing you were mine.
I can feel the void that is there,
As I lay here in a dazed stare.

Remembering the times we've had,
Feeling so many different things, so glad.
I can see you laughing and having fun,
All night, till we finally see the sun...

For you are the one I will miss,
Though I have the memories of all the bliss.
I don't know what else I can do,
For I know this isn't for you...

For I feel the way you look at me,
Though I wish you could see..
What I see when I look into those beautiful eyes,
Hoping this isn't all a lie...

For you bring me pleasure and joy,
Though I hope I'm not only a toy...
Because when I'm with you,
Everything just seems too good to be true.

As we are there side by side, we stand,
I'm always thinking of holding your hand.
For like I've said, it's you that I want to be with,
Without you I feel I couldn't live.

For when I'm with you I feel as if I actually have a pulse,
Everything I do seems to come all out of impulse.
I hope you can see the truth,
As you are a very beautiful youth.

That brings so much joy in this heart,
Where do I even begin to start.
I just hope it's love, not lust,
For you have done so much to gain my trust.

For I feel so many different things,
I just don't know what they all mean.
But in the end, even with all the risk...
Know this, Ich Liebe Dich...