Lost in my own faults

Deep in this hole i stand alone, so tired of crawling i take a break. i look up and see light above...will i ever get there? will i make it out? will i smell fresh air once again? i cry because i know i may not make, but i still have hope. i pray to the Angels to help me. i stand there looking up at the top, a bright light shines above. so bright i cant see anything else, i crawl frantically towards the light, scratching and clawing my way up...but with every movement i make, the hole im stuck in gets deeper and deeper. i panic, scared and afraid. the light i had seen is no longer there, only the blackness around. i hear only my breath and the beating of my heart...i am still alive...but im lost in this nightmare, i pray that i wake...i sit in the darkness with cold tears running down my cheeks. this is what i have become....trapped and lost in my own faults.....will i ever make it out? am i too lost to be saved?...i wish i knew