Delilah

A hint of linen in the air
A smile across the innocent face
Happiness in all her naivety
A presence that cannot be replaced

Her youthful curiosity
Betrayed her on this day
A hint of foreshadowing
A taste of dismay

This child meant the world to me
A delilah behind her ear
Eyes closed for just a moment
Just a moment, a moment that was dear

As she stood at the river's edge
Her fate she had no control
Stared back at her in distortment
Then in a flash swallowed her whole

This river she loved so much
Deceived her, ended her life
It marked the end of an era,
And the start of my strife

I reached down for the hand
The hand that I loved
Woman, save your child!
Show us what you're made of!

Icy water hit me like gunshot
I searched for the face
The face that meant so much to me
The face sank beneath the waves

Confusion overcame my body
Delilah, oh Delilah, where did you go?
The blue eyes that I loved
Have drifted down somewhere below

It's been five years since then
Everywhere I see her face
Her voice lingers around me
This anniversary will never be the same

Every tear I shed,
A pill takes its place
Forgetting is impossible
That day cannot be erased

Biting my lip
This pain and I, we coexist
This razor to the wrist
My arm blood-kissed

So this time I return to the river
This time will be the last
The car accelerates and sinks to the bottom
My final breaths begin to pass

The water flooded in my mouth
Taste like the tears I've shed
Slowly I taste copper
Tears? No, blood instead

My eyes were barely closing
My soul belonged in this lake
I saw those eyes, those sapphire eyes
I knew, Delilah, it was no mistake

This story of a mother
Her daughter's death, she held the blame
Beneath the lake they have a reunion
Their anniversary will never be the same

copyright to:
me, Helen Gutierrez

***This poem is based on the song Yellow Butterfly by Meg & Dia