ABUSE

All the pain
yet another sad memory
i cannot erase
it just adds another problem to face
sometimes i feel like such a disgrace
the abuse continued night after night
staying up wondering when things would
be made right or would it just end up in
another fight and once again i would be wrong
and he would be right
then i was physically and emotionally hurt
one minute i felt so loved and the next minute i felt like dirt
what is all this pain and hurt really worth
i asked myself that everyday
and still things never went my way
the abuse in some way made him feel better each day
i had no clue how to get away
i tried and tried to be brave but most of the time i felt used like a slave
felt so trapped with no way out
i really started to question what love was all about
i no longer knew how i felt
but i had to realize to move on
and i learned to deal with
my problem that is long gone

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it started with a push and a grabbing of the wrists then led to a slap in the face then led to being called every bad name possible then led to being socked in the stomach being choked being lifted and squeezed till i couldnt breathe.................................................

DONT EVER LET A GUY HURT YOU IN NE WAY ITS WRONG I AM STILL HAVING A HARD TIME GETTING OVER WHAT HAPPENED AND TRUSTING AGAIN AND NOW ANYTIME SOMEONE RAISES A HAND TO ME I START TO CRY