The blunt of my blade has been sharpened-
I can't stand life anymore-
My heart has been crushed-
I close the door.
I let my tears forever pour down-
I look down at the stained blade-
My life slips from me-
I've made the grade.
No one even wants me anymore-
I am shunned by friend and foe-
Why God is it me-
That lets this grow.
I'm bedridden with all this sadness-
I am now forever done-
This is now my end-
I hold the gun.
My pale, lifeless lips stop trembling-
My lifeless body falls down-
Falls through nothingness-
Through Death's black crown.
I forever fall through a black void-
Without any love or care-
Not a sound comes through-
Not even air.
I fall into an unbroken sleep-
Unbroken by everything-
Never to awake-
And no dreaming.
I lose track of time, thought, and reason-
Then, in the mid of death-
I come back again-
With just a breath.
After all my pain I'm not at end-
For my life starts all over-
Just to feel more pain-
I sink lower.
So, this is really, truly my end-
To live with this growing pain-
I fall down again-
And go insane.
O, God kill me for I want my death-
There is nothing for me for me here-
Not even a crumb-
Only my tear.
What are you punishing me for, God-
For having a broken heart-
From being lonely-
Please let me part.
My black walls are closing in on me-
I'm tortured by my own pain-
O, please let me be-
I just can't gain.
