I MUST decide now

On the top of his building, I cry
Thinking of suicide
My eyes are closed
I wish someone would push me
So it would just be considered homocide

Right now, I need to decide
Whether i'm going to commit suicide
Will I die now?
Or will I die later?

Will jumping be my life's anwser?
Or will my fathers pistol be the way?
Or should I just O.D. on "E"?

Which ever one, it'll be, I must decide now.
I decide not to jump, I go to turn around, but the trip and fall over the edge.

Everybody said Falling feels like flying... but they never said anything about what happens when you hit the ground....