A dreadfuL wish

Its felt so empty
like a lost soul
floating but nowhere to go
and darkness was so cold

suddenly a light blinded me
after few seconds i get accustomed with it
then there is a girl in snuffle
and men was grinning around her.

it seems that i can feel her grief
but i dontt get the whole drive
i try to get close to but it fades away
then a message was on the wing towards me.

oh how i wish to summoned death than love
as death is stable;
it comes once in an existence,
and it goes on without a twinge
... without a trace
... without him.
unlike love,
even the world has giving you all the grounds to move on,
yet, you tend to hold on.
the person who was once your life,
the one you start and end your day,
has now swiftly turned into someone who only says hi,
and the worst he now becomes somewhat a familiar lone.

still bothered with what i read,
and try to deliberate my thoughts,
i bash into something.

it follows my every motion.
still weary, i look up,
then i saw the same girl staring back at me.

i reach out, she reach out;
i smile, she smiles back;
i ask her why, she answered me why;

felt anxious,
i back off, then i saw her backing off too,
i yelled wait, i heed her say wait.

for a few minutes we gaze at each other,
then i feel and spot tears are flowing,

after that i turned my back at her,
a smirk curled at my lips.

...wish was granted.