The love of my life

I cut myself just to see
how much it bleeds
i don't understand
where does this lead?
this emptiness inside of me
the longing for to once be free
i smile everyday,
pretends it's just fine
it's hurting inside
and i can't deny
i hate myself for who i am
wonder if it's ever gonna end
i love my friends i surely do
i wonder, does anyone love me too?
i feel so lonely deep inside
all this hate makes me so blind
too blind to see the light
love the darkness in the night
i look at my scares they still bleeds
i know there's only one thing i surely need
a true friend that can hold me tight
never leave me alone at night
the love of my life