I Told You Who I Am Today

I told you who i am today
in hopes we'd be closer some way
and even though your pain, you tried to disguise
you could not hide it when i saw your eyes

I'm sorry i am not who you want me to be
but i finally feel like i am being me
now you know the person i have become
and the way you reacted left me feeling numb

i hoped that this might bring me closer to you
but you brought my hopes down like you usually do
i don't know why i expected so much
i miss the love in my mothers touch

I'm sorry dear mom that i turned out to be gay
I'm sorry that you didn't plan on you're "perfect daughter" being this way
but this is who i am, and i can't change me
nor would i want to because this me is happy

but i would be so much happier if you were there
to support me and love me, show that you care
i guess that's too much to ask, to someone with so little to give
i just wish you'd be OK with the way I've chosen to live

Why can't I do anything right. I haven't decided if i regret telling her yet. is that bad?

I'm so frustrated.

i thought she'd understand.

:'(