F u c k him

Dear diary,

dear diary i know that I'm alone inside
and broken to the core
i know that I'm isolated
an outcast for sure

i know that i cant breathe at night
when all i see is him
i know that Ive been searching for something
that hasn't been dimmed

i know that in my heart
i love him to the end
i know that i will loose him
because of my best friend

i know that all i want
is to be happy and not fight
ill try to do anything
just to make this right

i know Ive been destroy
broken burned and dissembled
and after he came i was new
and loved not broken but resembled

he made me believe him
everything all the lies
i could swear he didn't lie to me
thats just cause i looked with my eyes

i didn't reach far enough
to get what i long for
i know that all i could ever get
was something that was sponsored

my eyes are burning once again
with hate such as black
this time after Ive been broken
I'm not coming back

i hate him with a passion
so deep and dark tonight
i hope he dies and burns in hell
even then i wont be alright

all he ever did
was make me believe his lies
and now i hope he looks at me
and stares into my eyes

i hope he sees the joy i had
and the hate that has taken over
then he would know not to play with me
and thinks "i should have told her"

i wish he would have left
and just not have said a word
i wish he wouldn't have came back
or at least i wouldn't have heard

i just wish i could have been alright
and now just end my life
thats it I'm signing off
i have to look for my knife