MEANING OF LIFE

Why is it every time a person dies a child is born? why is it every time a inoccent person is locked up a criminal is set free? why is it everytime someone is weak another gains strength from one's weakness? Why does God put us on this earth if we're only here temporarily?

I am tired of life's crap, i feel like im living in h#*l, im so fu***ng tired of trying to live up 2 others expectations, im tired of pretending im happy, its getting to the point where im just tired of living anymore

I dont feel pretty at all i never have, when i was six my mom decided to replace my dad, I grew up alone my mom was always stuck up my step-dad's a**, i'd look at myself and hate wut i saw, i'd scratch at my face tryin 2 get rid of the ugly i saw, i was eleven and didnt care at all

I hated myself and still had no one to love, i'd cry everyDAY AND STILL HAD NO ONE TO HUG , I FELT LIKE NO ONE KNEW I EXSISTED, UNTIL I WAS 13 I GAVE A GUY ALL OF ME , THATS WHEN MY MOM WANTED TO PLAY MOMMY, SHE NOTICED I WAS CHANGING AND ALL RESPECT FOR HER WAS FADING,

I AM 16 YEARS OLD AND FEEL LIKE A H**
3 GUYS HAVE FU**ED ME SINCE I WAS 13

SO THE MEANING OF THIS LIFE
IT HAS NO MEANING TO ME