Gender Confusion

This is all still really confusing to me. I never quite understood what was happening with me. I had never been attracted to another girl before her. Please don't leave any rude comments. Constructive critism on the peom itself is perfectly fine. Just leave the subject alone. I'm still sensitive about it all.
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I don't understand.
None of this makes sense.
I love him, not her.
I wish I could put this to rest.

A girl? Whats wrong with me?
Girls dont love girls.
It just doesnt fit.
Boys love girls.
Oh I love the way she twirls.

No, dont think like this.
Its a phaze, youll get through this.
Day by day, youll realize.
But God, I just want a kiss.

My head spins,
As I see her head my way.
Im holding his hand,
Just breathe, youll be okay.

Him or her?
How is this even a question?
Im straight, I dont like girls.
I cant, this is all so wrong.
But I do, and I cant stop.
Please, please just stop.