I miss you

It's been so long since I've seen your face,
it still isn't the same place,
i used to hope that it all was a dream,
i thought that god wouldn't be that mean,
but whenever i need my space,
i go to your resting place,
i cry whenever i go near,
but i know i have nothing to fear,
my heart is still to mend,
but you will guide me to the end,
the pain of loss is still to great,
why did you have to meet this fate,
when i heard i could not believe,
i spent whole days: just to grieve,
11 days after my birthday,
why did my life turn out this way,
11 years is just to young,
to take a father from his son,
even with the years past by,
my happiness already died,
i break away all my ties,
acting happy: but it is all a lie,
people try to relate,
but i can tell that it's all fake,
they all still live happy lives,
and never know what i feel inside,
still i know i will make it through,
but just like always: I MISS YOU!!

This poem is completely true. My father died on January 29, 2002. i had only celebrated my 11th birthday 11 days before he died. I still cry when i visit his grave today, just like i have been crying the whole time i write this. I miss you dad.

Rest In Peace
Lee "Roy" Conrad
Nov. 5, 1955-Jan. 29, 2002