I Miss You

I miss you dear brother
More than anyone will never know
I cant express it in words
So my grieving I would never show

Today is November 2nd
Today is also your birthday
I was never one to talk about it
But now I've got something to say

I've decided to speak up
Tell everyone how i feel
Whats going through my head
let everyone know whats really real.

When you died, I was sad
Around my family it was hard to grieve
The only thing I used to express myself
was concealed under my sleeve

Now I wanna talk about you
I want to sit down and speak
I'm going to tell them it all
without you my life has been so bleak.

After you died
My life crumbled down
I faked everyday of my life
I even had fake smile, Like a clown.

I grieved for longer
than anyone else I knew
Sometimes i even wondered
If I would ever make it through

I still cry all the time
After so many years
I still miss you so much
after so many tears

I will never forget you
But I think its time to move on now
I think its what i have to do
But I just don't know how

I'm going to live life day by day
But remember you every second of it, too
I'm going to move on
But I'm always going to miss you.